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And what a year it has been.
With too much ups and downs to count. But nevertheless the best year of the decade. Seems my personal magick number is the 09. And although my friends believe I’m the personification of a working triangulate system …
(yes, no, maybe – yeah, right … in 20 years you’ll be able to distinguish a PC’s gender by this. For sure.

“My PC thinks dual – it’s male.”
“Lucky one. Mine isn’t sure, if she should install the latest updates. And as much as I tell her, it is okay – she always ask if I’m sure about it. If I’m absolutely sure about it. And if I’m not telling lies to please her.”

- and now I better don’t ask myself why I have to giggle at the moment.)

… I found my personal recurrent theme. And finally I’m glued to it. Schemes and Systematics. My keywords for ‘09. And hopefully for the rest of my life.
Welcome to Geek-town.

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Dec. 16th, 2009 12:38 am
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What happens if you try to learn for the ‘Standard Software’-Test?

You feel exactly like those kittens…

found @ 11k2

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Geez, I never thought I would anticipate the break over Christmas that much. I’m so ready for vacation. And I am going to enjoy the two weeks off. Really enjoy them. Without remorse.

The time of the year has come, when everybody is looking back – and this year was a summery of up’s and down’s for me. More extreme than every year before. But in the end with such a positive outcome that I still have troubles to accept the reality. Still looking out for the hidden booby trap.

I’ve lost some people who I called my best friends – and it still hurts. And will hurt for a long time. But with more and more time to think about, my own pride stepped in the way. I’m so fed up to apologize for everything and nothing, just for peace’s sake.
I’ve met some incredible people, and this goes out to three special girls – you have not the slightest idea what this crazy evening in Cologne meant to me ♥ ♥ ♥

I’ve made peace with a woman I’ve called my best friend for a long time – and this year we finally managed to speak about so much stuff that was bothering us two … and I’m so happy about it. And although we’ll keep fighting about meaningless issues, she has a special spot in my heart (maybe because I would miss those fights like hell XD)

I have never been this radical before to cut off lose ends.
I’ve moved back to the city I was born at. The most ugly city in Germany – remember: Bielefeld does not exist.
And for more than nine years I experience the feeling of real happiness again.

And there are my guys. Those complete geeks, that shot/slashed/calculated a way into my heart. And who I don’t want to miss …

Also me haz cat – finally. Stupid, clever, annoying, adorable cat. Kind of my really early Christmas present.

And if 2009 is proofing anything – then it is imho: To never give up and develop some faith in yourself. (Honestly, if somebody would have told me this on New Year’s Eve ‘08 I would have laughed out lout XD)

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Just three more tests to go – tomorrow and Monday will be hell for me. Tomorrow I have to write a test in java-programming. And it’s not the programming itself which drives me nuts. Actually I love it. Who would have thought so one year ago? For sure I wouldn’t…

But I have to catch up on math. Haven’t done that for ten years. And I had to realize that I miss some basics. Basics I need at Monday for the math-test *droop*


But for today I closed my books. Informationoverflow at the moment.

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… schools official memo regarding the swine flue:

…2. Sollte jemand in Ihrem Haushalt erkrankt sein, ist das kein Grund mehr, nicht zur Schule zu kommen (mit etwas Ironie: somit k├Ânnen Sie die Krankheit besser verbreiten).
(roughly translated: Should be somebody sick at your home it’s not a reason to stay away from school (ironically: you’re allowed to spread the virus)

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I haz cat

Nov. 30th, 2009 06:25 pm
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Since yesterday I have a new house mate. His name is Jamie and he’s a beauty. At least in the eye of the beholder – in this case, it’s me.


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But school’s eating up most of my resources at the moment.

And I will not bitch about it – I feel as happy and good as I haven’t in years. I could bore you with structure charts of simple things I have to write in Java. But I better keep my mouth shut – or some people are going to kill me XD
Weekends are a bless – for the first time in years I can really appreciate those 48 hours off the clock – to sum it up: my live has changed dramatically. And I luv it.
Math is driving me nuts at the moment – logic isn’t really the problem … but I always get confused by the logical ‘and’ or ‘or’ (not to speak about the fragging ‘xor’).
So my private life is on hiatus until Christmas. When I have some time I either spent way too much time at the phone or play Oblivion again. But this year I promised myself I will send cards – so if anybody wants to receive a ‘cheesy’ Kabuki-X-mas card, just write me your address at kabuki-at-smokingbunny-dot-de :)

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This is the third time I switch my blog’s url – hopefully for the last time. And hopefully this will be the last ’socks missing in action’-post at this place.

But for once and only once I have to sum up some decisions I’ve made over the last months.

Life is a bitch – no doubt about it. And I’m not running away. I’ve left enough traces – thanks to the web 2.0. My twitter-account is still the same. I deleted my account at fanfiction.de, what wasn’t a decision I’ve made out of the blue … I also deleted my old Animexx-account (and was clever enough to assure that I keep my ‘kabuki‘-nick) – another step that hurt.

But life has to go on – and I’m at the point where I can’t look back. Although some people might call this a treachery. And it hurts… it f***ing hurts more then I would be able to put in words. I’m the last person on earth who doesn’t value such a stupid thing as friendship.
So, if you want to call my actions a treachery … I can’t change your point of view.

All I can do for now is to put a hold on all this.

I’ll move my livejournal activities to smoking_bunny within the next few weeks. And I’m going to add all the people who are important to me as well as the communities I’ve loved to watch.
And dear f-list … if you want to do me a favor – just add the smoking_bunny-account to your list if you’re still interested in my thoughts about life, universe and everything else. Saves me the hazel to update everything and everybody XD

Within the next few days I’ll concentrate on the appearance of smokingbunny.de – the blog will be reserved for things more general like publishing artwork and posts about nothing and everything in general. I’ll code an extra section for fanfiction and doujinshis – but I’ll need some time for it.

And the ‘Socks MIA’-posts will be reserved for the lj.

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